The Jittery Bride!

Hello beautiful people! How was your weekend? I can tell you about my weekend, but you would ask me to say something different because it has been the same just like last week where we sat on the couch, ate our food, watched few movies, read a book and completely avoided a bath.  But when I woke up this morning to the pictures of my cousin’s wedding which took place today, I’m somehow reminded of the day where everyone in my life were having fun except for me. Yes, I’m talking about my wedding day. It’s never easy for the bride on her wedding day as her parents introduce her to the thousands of people whom she has no idea to know but has to pretend to know them anyway so that they will feel good. And god forbid if they get a whiff of doubt about the credentials of the bride to have known them, they start questioning further to confirm whether you actually know them or are you simply bluffing.

I remember my wedding in bits and peaces. It’s going to be almost two years since Bigshot and I got married and most of the memories I have is of the waiting room, where I was fidgeting around the entire place all decked up in a saree and gold thrown all over my body. My friends and cousins were looking at me that day in the room with utter fear and concern as if I’m about to detonate any moment. The waiting room had a sucky air conditioning and I felt like I’ll faint from the summer heat if I didn’t stand next to the fan in the AC which was giving me some sort of relief. That’s when I heard the sound of the instruments playing which meant the groom had arrived in the building. In that exact moment a huge butterfly with gigantic wings decided to flutter around my stomach and come out of my mouth. I knew I was panicking when some of them started staring at me and some in the pretense of helping out on some work ran away from the room. That is the only time I thought of slowly sneaking out of the wedding hall, catching an auto and running away from the place. I remember looking at some of them in the room, wanting to speak my mind but the only thing that came out of my mouth were baby sounds, whimpers and the flapping sound of a butterfly from the stomach.  I know what all of you are thinking, there is hardly anything to be worried about on your wedding day! But for me,  the thought of so many people staring at you, judging you and being in that spot-light the whole day gave me the jitters, not to mention at the same time trying to smile for the pictures till your cheeks starts to hurt and slowly turn into numbness.

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Have a good day/night everyone 🙂