It’s A New Month

Ola you beautiful humans! It’s Christmas Month and you know what that means, Lights, Jingles, Santa and Snow! I’m glad I said goodbye to November as it has been a landslide not to forget my turning 28, aaah memories. So today I thought I’ll start the random topic challenge with the question how am I doing right now.

I’ve been doing pretty good lately, I write every single week day which is something I always wanted to do and my definition of success of this blog is when I have the zeal to sit and write every day about anything under the sky and have a bunch of readers who constantly read and support my blog. Also my blog is my happy place where I don’t try to bring negativity that tries to creep up on me once in a while and get the better of me and the people who tries to bring me down. This blog has never been a place where I target any single person out and go on a rant about it. And I’m absolutely proud of myself for never indirectly or directly trying to poke or hurt someone just because I’ve the opportunity to write about it on a blog. I think what Michelle Obama said during the infamous US election this year has a valid point here, when they go low, you go high.

I created this website and started writing here with the sole purpose of dumping my thoughts about everything that’s been happening in my life and also for writing few stories but for the past couple of days I’ve been lacking enthusiasm to continue writing and all I want to do most of the time is to crawl inside my bed and lie down for the whole day. It’s not just about writing, I don’t relish cooking, I don’t feel the need to shower, I don’t even feel the need to eat. But I do all of these things anyway because if I don’t do it, I know that the creepy sinking feeling I have will increase.

The only time I’m happy is when Bigshot comes back from office and it doesn’t necessarily have to do with him spending time with me, but the mere presence of him in the house lifts my mood. Maybe because I’m so afraid to call any of my friends on the phone, I always end up putting everything in the back of my head as if I’m shoving more clothes on to an almost cramped up suitcase that’s just about to burst. Since this blog is a tiny minuscule part of the huge internet space, I’m putting it out here and maybe some will read this blog or maybe it will go to the void, but I thought I’ll start journaling my thoughts here once in a while, whether I’m elated or feeling low or both.

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So what do I do about these feelings? Whether it’s just a phase? I don’t know, I get such defeated thoughts once in a while and from now on I’m going to make sure I write it down and maybe it will help me in getting over it. And also, I’m going to make sure I get out of the house at least once a day and I don’t care if the weather is too cold outside or the sun has set earlier, I’ll go for a walk, take some fresh oxygen,be grateful for everything I have and talk to myself while walking and freak out others. YOLO! It’s time to unpack that cramped up suitcase.

Have a good day/night everyone 🙂

Picture courtesy: Johnny Toons